Wut Up??

Thats a Rod Ryan phrase. for all of you who know who that is!!! Anyway, I've got some amazing friends!I've been feeling so stressed out lately, and I just realized how loved I am! I'm hoping that a certain person will read my blog soon and he'll understand alot after he does...but I don't know! I got little to no sleep last nite or really for the past week for that matter. Oh yeah, ok...my little brother last nite comes into my room and says "madi, are you leaving for college soon?" and I tell him yes in 2 years, I am leaving. And he says "but I want you to stay here with me." and of course I tell him the usual thing, that I will always come and visit him and that he'll always see me. but deep down I have a feeling taht I'm gonna miss out on him growing up. And that makes me sad. I love my ba-bay to death and I do anything for him, but I know that I'm gonna have to leave for college and in that I'm gonna have to leave him at home. I know he's gonna miss me and I know that'll miss him. Those years(j-high and high school)are precious for him and those are the years I'm gonna miss. I won't be able to have "the talk" with those gurls that inevitably will chase him and ....there's so much I am gona miss in his life and in his little world, I really don't know how I will survive without him!! he's my little angel. and thats why I know I can't leave him. but I know I'm gonna have to eventually!