Outlooks on life.

Yesterday someone told me that I had a "I hate the world" outlook to things and that I appeared to be a very violent person. No it was not a shrink...I don't have one anymore! So anyway it got me thinking...a very bad thing to do, and I have figured it out. Lately, if you saw me or talked to me and I was not completely out of it(I've been on some serious meds for some 10 day virus) then I have no idea what I said to you, I'll apologize now, because I figure I have already found a way to piss someone off. Anyway, I have come to the conclusion that I am a bit of a pessimist. I do like it that way though. It's actually healthy, in a sense. I mean I am a huge risk taker because I know that I am going to die eventually, I know that will go to heaven, and I trully believe that when God wants me he's gonna take me, wether I'm ready or not, so I might as well try different things! However I can always see the other side of the rainbow, theres always something better. Either way I find myself believeing this montra, Things can Always get worse, and if you push it you'll find that a pitch-black pit can get deeper and darker, but let things flow and don't give up, because maybe Someone up there really does love you and he'll get you out of whatever shit hole you dug for yourself!