Breakaway

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray
Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray
I could break away
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.I
'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away
Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jetplane
Far away
And break away
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away
Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging with revolving doors
Maybe I don’t know where they’ll take me
Gotta keep movin on movin on
Fly away
Break away
I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
Though it’s not easy to tell you goodbye
Take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away
Breakaway
Break away

I feel like this right now. trapped with nothing to gain or lose. It hurts but not enough to depress me or make me cry. just a feeling. not the blues, just...uhhh!

How to write a Research Paper

1. Have the research materials when you try to write it.
oopps! I don't have that! I am managing to write my research paper without any of my resources. Stupid? yup! its really hard, but luckily I know almost everything about this person, Jeanne d' Arc, so its really easy for me...but still annoying beyond reason! Anyway this weekend has been off the wall crazy! I finally got Sadie stuff, took long enough. We're doing the UH. I have 2 papers due next week and a test in English. On top of all this I'm really concerned about one of my best friends. She thinks she's fat and ugly. but She isn't and I don't know how to tell her this so that she'll believe me. My mom use to think about herself too, but she doesn't. and I don't want her to go through most of her life believing this. Anyway It has just really been bothering me!

A Day that will go down in History

The Rosehill Sophmore class girls had a bible study, and left without beef! We just had it out and confronted everyone about the he said she said crap! it was Amazing! I hope taht we can really stay with God this year and be the example to everyone else. Not just at school, but away from it that would be amazing! Anyway, I wish to apologize to Casey and Gillian for assuming things and not confronting them. Yesterday I posted and said a few things concerning them, and really it wasn't even that I was mad at them but was pissed off at everything else in the world and kinda just threw it all on them. So I'm sorry, and I hope everything between us is cool!

Life, as we're told

From the time that we are very young we are told how life is and what you have to do if we want to achive it. What people don't think about is that we don't like to be told what we Have to do, or what we need to do. My dad has had me looking at colleges since I ws in 6th and 7th grade. Now of course I'm looking on my own and trying to find the best one for my major, but was it nessacary to look at them when I was 12 and 13 years old? This is something that I don't really understand quite yet. Anyway, I was discussing this with my mother, when my dad comes in from work and he has information to St. Edward's University in Austin, and he asks me what I think about it. Well, I really don't want to go to a private or Christian University. I mean I have been considering Trinity in San Antonio, or Mississippi College in Clinton Miss. but I really don't think so.
Top 5 College Choices:
~1. LSU
~2. UCD( University of California in Davis, which is in northern cali.)
~3. UCLA
~4. UT
~5. UH

The World of blogs...and what you can find through them

Ok everyone in the world has gotten a blog and i just realized that bellydancetx on Cooper's blog is his last g/f...odd!Anyway, i needa get down to this whole thang! I have this friend who really likes this guy that i like and i don't want to hurt our friendship, but i wanna date him, and plan to. I mean he doesn't like her, he likes me and has for a couple weeks now... i mean what do i do?? help!???

Outlooks on life.

Yesterday someone told me that I had a "I hate the world" outlook to things and that I appeared to be a very violent person. No it was not a shrink...I don't have one anymore! So anyway it got me thinking...a very bad thing to do, and I have figured it out. Lately, if you saw me or talked to me and I was not completely out of it(I've been on some serious meds for some 10 day virus) then I have no idea what I said to you, I'll apologize now, because I figure I have already found a way to piss someone off. Anyway, I have come to the conclusion that I am a bit of a pessimist. I do like it that way though. It's actually healthy, in a sense. I mean I am a huge risk taker because I know that I am going to die eventually, I know that will go to heaven, and I trully believe that when God wants me he's gonna take me, wether I'm ready or not, so I might as well try different things! However I can always see the other side of the rainbow, theres always something better. Either way I find myself believeing this montra, Things can Always get worse, and if you push it you'll find that a pitch-black pit can get deeper and darker, but let things flow and don't give up, because maybe Someone up there really does love you and he'll get you out of whatever shit hole you dug for yourself!

Sudden Death

i don't care what Cooper says, That was Sudden Death! i had 5 Pk's to block and i had never really practiced them! it was soo hard but i will give more detail sunday when i get back from my retreat!

Sudden Death II

Penalty Kicks...suck! 5 different girls shot straight at me! it was the scariest thing ever! Lindsey, Cayla, Lysee, Kristen, and Rachel C.; I'm so proud of each of them! they were our 5 shooters. It was amazing! our last game was just the most fulfilling thing ever! watching my teammates, my friends, play the best game of the season! We held a 0-0 score the whole game and had to go into over time! we ended up losing 2-1 but watching Kristen score on that keeper...that was some serious stuff right thurr! Anyway, i'm about to leave for my Church Retreat with Monkey! Its gonna be some much fun being back at Pineywoods! Well more later! Good job Poptart, Foxy, Monkey, Nikki, and all my other peeps!hehehe! i'm gonna miss being with ya'll all the time, and i will miss soccer, so until next Season...GET YA EAGLE ON GA!!!!

Lately in mY wOrLd...

Hey yeah my week has sucked! I'm kinda just in my own little world lately! But all my friends have really been there for me knowing that my family life is interesting and that people are always pissin the hell outta me! but thats okay! well i gotta Soccer game tonight so i'll post tomarrow!